I’m up and I didn’t buy my cereal this week, so I ate everything else at my disposal. I thought I’d save myself some points not buying the cereal. Nope. I need the cereal.
Just before weigh-in, too. Dumb.
I know I’m not being very kind to myself. I need to be better about that. I just hope I’ve done enough this week, that’s all.
It seems stupid that I’m working my ass off and then totally sabotaging my efforts by overeating. I wish I could get a handle on the overeating. Can I really not? Or am I just telling myself I can’t?
Often, I do okay and screw up at the very end. That just seems like self-sabotage.
I’m going to try to sleep for a while, maybe in Desmond’s room. I don’t know.
Thinking Out Loud: Life of Leah 