I’ve been stuck in the 70s since, what, April?

I know why. It’s simple. Too many calories. I’m still tracking well, so I know I’m going way over everyday. I’ve been losing and regaining the same four pounds for months.

I use the Baritastic app. I have two habit trackers, now. I exercise everyday, including two days of strength training per week. So I’m doing a lot of things right.

The problems are the calories and the soda. Although it’s diet soda, it’s still very bad, and some doctors say it actually causes weight gain. I was a damn fool to start drinking it again.

I never stopped missing it. I quit from November to April. April is when I stopped losing weight. I’m not stupid. I recognize the connection.

I can’t just limit the soda. It’s too hard for me. I have to cut it out entirely, and somehow get over craving it. Or I will stay stuck in this rut forever.

For me, it’s a bigger problem than smoking ever was. I couldn’t go back to smoking if I wanted to. I feel like I need the carbonation.

So why not seltzer? Well, maybe. I’ve tried that before, though. Many times. It usually leads back to the soda.

I think all the extra calories come indirectly from drinking too much soda. Artificial sweetener spikes your sugar cravings. It is also not a good hydration source. There are literally zero benefits to drinking it.

Intellectually, I understand all of this. But it’s so hard to follow through.

But I will have to come clean at my next Lindsey appointment, which is this month, and she will tell me I have to quit it again.

The struggle is real, my friends.

I predict that if I stop drinking soda, my calories will decrease and I will continue losing weight.

I think if I keep drinking it, I’m setting myself up to fail. I can’t compete with it. For me to say there’s no connection is just lying to myself. I need to stop buying it. I need to stop drinking it. Period.

I’m not where I want to be, yet. I’m not going to get there unless I make a change.