It’s that wonderful time of day and, wouldn’t you know it, I have absolutely no idea what to write about.

Normally when this happens, I get up and do something else for a while, or I look at my running topics list. Or, worst of all, I ramble for paragraphs about nothing.

But I don’t feel like doing anything else and I don’t currently have a running topics list for this blog.

I’ve thought of something. Recently, for s & g’s, I took some screenings. They all came back basically the same:

I am having Vocational Rehabilitation Services look into it.

In a million years I wouldn’t have thought this could be possible. Now I’m starting to wonder. I don’t know, though. I really want to connect with people, I just have a hard time doing it.

But do I really want to connect with people? I spend a lot of my time avoiding them, actually.

I am socially awkward.

I often prepare scripts in my head of what I will say before I say it.

I hyper fixate on subjects of interest to me, like analytics.

It seems unlikely that I would have two such neurotypical kids, though, if I had autism.

I can read facial expressions quite well…but I’ve studied body language since I was a kid.

It would explain a lot of things.

I always had good imaginative play skills, though.

I don’t think so. I don’t think I have autism. My speech and language development were completely normal. Motor skills were fine.

But there’s something. They did testing in 2016, and ADHD symptoms featured prominently, but I don’t think that’s the whole picture.

I have an intake today. We’ll see how that goes and go from there.