Sunday Driving, Lots of Detours 👍

Down 0.6. I had probably 100 points yesterday, though.

I was good about tracking until after I went to bed. I recorded 60. Then I got up, ate most of the maple cookies and didn’t track them.

I’m having such a hard time with this. Even just not bingeing.

But I know I can’t just not do it, because I’ve tried that too, and it makes the situation even worse.

I’d say try something else, but I don’t want to. For multiple reasons:

  • I’m comfortable with WW
  • It’s familiar
  • I have a support network
  • I know it works!

I reached my goal before. I made lifetime. But I stopped going to meetings and I didn’t maintain.

Also I was in yet another stressful work situation. I skipped meetings to spend my time lesson planning. And we all gave the kids candy reinforcers for good behavior.

I ate most of my candy.

I had fourth graders, and I did not do well with that age group.

Okay, well, that’s not entirely true. I had some very good relationships and interactions with a lot of those kids…just not the ones with real behavior issues.

But I also didn’t really know what I was doing. I don’t feel like my masters program prepared me amply to work with K-12. There were too many things I came out not knowing how to do.

My advisor used to tell me I didn’t need to know curriculum, only how to modify it. I feel like that was incredibly misleading.

So I took all of the methodologies courses, too, but even that didn’t prepare me.

Maybe I chose the wrong focuses, I’m not sure what happened.

I just know I was a very weak elementary teacher.

Preschool was a whole different story. A much happier one. There wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle at the preschool level. I survived the year of Collin Phillips, even. That little boy was as big as me. And as strong. I wonder how he’s doing now. How his parents are.

How’d I get from WW to preschool?

It’s like I’m going for a drive and I’m veering off onto all these side roads and backroads that seem vaguely familiar, but by the end of it, I’m in Manchester, and I don’t know how I got there.

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