Out of Control

Night after night, I fail at this. I fail hard. I don’t know what to do anymore.

I can’t give up. I can’t afford it. I have to keep trying. But everything I’ve tried has only worked for a day or two.

I wonder if I’m spending too much time hyperfocusing on it? Maybe I need to just track and not obsess over it. That’s hard for me. This is my life. It’s sad, but it’s true. I am this.

Have to go for now.