Back to Normal

Phew!

Thank goodness that’s over with and I finally have my prescription straightened out. Maybe tomorrow I won’t feel so tired and out of sorts.

Apparently I get “perfect attendance” hours. Three point something per month every month without absences. I didn’t know that. So I have 10 hours, so far, of paid time, I think is how it works. Mike told me today. Sweeeeeeet.

On August 15, I’ll get a raise and 40 hours of vacation time. We’re also shut down with pay the last two weeks of the year.

I am nervous, though, that they’ll shut down the week of July 4 without pay if business doesn’t pick up.

I finally started to get faster at what I was doing today, but I’ll bet I have to switch to something else tomorrow.

I’m glad I did well yesterday and hopefully today with WW, but I’m really unhappy today with where I’m at right now. I’m looking in the mirror, and I’m like, “Is that really me?”

I know I got myself where I am, so it’s on me, and I know it took time to get here. So of course I know it will take time to get back to where I want to be. Intellectually, I understand all of that. But emotionally, I’m like, “Bummer.”

Sometimes visualizing the future me is helpful. It makes me want to stay on task. Visualizing other things I want at the goal post of this journey is useful, too. But I won’t get into that.