6:00 Coffee

I took my meds and slept until maybe 5:45? Whenever Aislyn got up. I feel much better now. Much more awake.

I fell asleep at 8:00 last night. I was hoping the effects of the Depo might be wearing off, but I don’t know. I think it’s just that I’m working so hard to compensate for the side effects that sometimes it seems like it’s getting better, when maybe it’s about the same if I stopped trying.

People who have been on it have told me horror stories, that it stays in your body for a ridiculously long time. I really should’ve done my homework before agreeing to it. All they told me was weight gain in 30% of patients. I should’ve known that was too good to be true.

Wait a minute. No. How was I to know? I’m not a doctor. Or a nurse. I trusted my practice. Maybe that was my mistake. I’ve got to get out of there.

My insurance was supposed to send me a list of providers via email, but that ball got dropped, too. So I haven’t done anything. Maybe now that I get out at 2:00 everyday, I’ll have more time to do stuff like that.

Plans for today:

• Clean the kitchen
• Bike
• Try on clothes
• Kittery: mall health project (side gig)
• Laundry

I don’t know if I can get it all done today. I suppose I could start the kitchen now. I’m kind of happy where I am, though. Sitting and drinking my coffee, typing on my phone. It’s nice to sometimes not do anything. I am doing my light therapy, too, though, so I am actually doing something, it’s just not hard.

So, that’s about it for right now. My steel-toed shoes are too big, so I’ll have to send them back. I think they send you to Red’s for shoes with a form to buy them, anyway. I’ll probably just do that. Easier.

It’s going to be different. Jeans and T-shirt everyday. Won’t get to be pretty or look girly. But I’ll save money. And no gourmet food, although that wasn’t a problem for very long.

They’re very nice, there. People stay a long time, families work there. I think it will be good. My biggest worry is being able to hear or process instructions accurately, as it will be loud and busy.

I’ll adapt. I just have a feeling.