I lay there for 45 minutes this morning. I just didn’t want to get up. Now there’s not enough time for my light therapy.
I still feel tired, like I could close my eyes and fall asleep sitting here.
For so long I hadn’t felt like this anymore. Since I started the Adderall in 2017, I was a different person with my level of energy, until it wore off around bedtime. It was awesome.
Now, since December, I’m perpetually sleepy again, and I absolutely hate it. Like before, I could fall asleep anytime, anywhere, in any position.
I don’t want to be like this. It feels like a weakness.
I was tested in my 20s for sleep disorders, but they didn’t find anything and told me it was probably a mood disorder, which was weird and kind of inappropriate. I used to think I had narcolepsy. I don’t think that anymore.
Time to go. Stay warm, readers. Stay awake.