Desmondisms

I have a list on my phone of all the cute and funny things Desmond said when he was little little. Here are the best ones:

• 4/26/17: Desmond getting his hair washed: No, I don’t wanna be handsome!
• 3/21/17: Derek: That is Mama’s (breast pump), it is not yours. Desmond: Yes it is! I use it all the time!
• 2/27/17: Screw it, screwdriver!
• 2/2/17: This is the women’s room and that is the men’s room and I am a men.
• 2/16/17: Mama, I am a real men!
• ?: (Singing): Men men men men men men men men we’re totally men!
• 12/10/16: Daddy: Did you toot? Desmond: No, the remote tooted.
• 10/24/16: I do NOT want to compromise!
• ?: (in the tub) I’m naken Desmond.

Unfortunately, I haven’t written down all the funny things Aislyn has said over the years. Or if I have, they’re all scattered about the house (one’s on the fridge). I got second child syndrome with Aislyn, so she got shafted. Her baby book probably has slightly fewer details in it than Desmond’s.

I was only able to breastfeed her for four months, as well, vs. Desmond’s whole year. They told us in the hospital that girls pick it up quicker. But Aislyn didn’t (they say the same thing about toileting). No matter how I tried, I couldn’t get her to latch properly, and my milk supply wasn’t as robust with her. For a while, I only pumped for her, but eventually I gave up on that, too.

I was working full-time at a job I hated, 45 minutes from home, and suffering from postpartum. It was just too much.

Of course, if she’s not accepted to Yale, I’ll blame myself. Nah, but I do still feel guilty about the breastfeeding only working out for one of them.

I can remember some of the cute and funny things Aislyn has said, but not verbatim, and I wouldn’t do her justice trying to recall them off the top of my head. Like Desmond, she’s very articulate.

I need newer pictures of them for my aunts for Christmas.

Desmond gets his second dose tonight. It could not have come soon enough. Every single day, I worry about him at school. I didn’t want to send him until he was fully vaccinated, but I’m glad we did, for his social-emotional well-being.

I just hated the thought of him getting sick and ending up in the hospital without me or Derek there with him. How horrifying for a child. Just thinking about it still makes me want to cry.

I ended this post on such a sad note, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to! I’m just so grateful that soon Desmond will be fully immunized. Now we’ll just need Aislyn taken care of, and hopefully, that will be enough to get us all through this in one piece.